Defeated

The great big wheel
Of life has turned
Catastrophic
Had my fingers burned

It took my Father
To another plane
I’m left in the debris
Dealing with my pain

The worst year of my life
Since records began
Lined up the pills
But couldn’t carry out my plan

Wanted to end it all
Left feeling broken and small
Why was I a target
Seems I’m paying out all my karma at once

I’m at a cross roads
Feeling battered and bruised
No enthusiasm for life
Where’s the fucking noose?!

Followed all my passions
Followed all my dreams
Nothing to show at all
For all my efforts – wasted energy

Need something uplifting
A message from the Gods
What’s the point of me
I’m failing – stacked against the odds

I thought I knew what I was doing
Thought I knew the score
Seems I was wrong and just a fantasist
Nothing left here at all

Lift me up
If you possibly can
I’m out of ideas
Want to throw in the can

I need salvation
Or I’m going down
Help me please God
As I flounder alone.

Craving inspiration
How could I have been so dumb?
Am I such a tragic person
Redemption couldn’t wright these wrongs?

Defeated

The great big wheel
Of life has turned
Catastrophic
Had my fingers burned

It took my Father
To another plane
I’m left in the debris
Dealing with my pain

The worst year of my life
Since records began
Lined up the pills
But couldn’t carry out my plan

Wanted to end it all
Left feeling broken and small
Why was I a target
Seems I’m paying out all my karma at once

I’m at a cross roads
Feeling battered and bruised
No enthusiasm for life
Where’s the fucking noose?!

Followed all my passions
Followed all my dreams
Nothing to show at all
For all my efforts – wasted energy

Need something uplifting
A message from the Gods
What’s the point of me
I’m failing – stacked against the odds

I thought I knew what I was doing
Thought I knew the score
Seems I was wrong and just a fantasist
Nothing left here at all

Lift me up
If you possibly can
I’m out of ideas
Want to throw in the can

Craving inspiration
How could I have been so dumb?
Am I such a tragic person
Redemption couldn’t wright these wrongs?

I need salvation
Or I’m going down
Help me please God
As I flounder alone.